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My Personal Spoonie Hacks

My Personal Spoonie Hacks

These are my personal Top 25 Spoonie Hacks! For those of you who do not know what a ‘spoon’ means should look into ‘Spoon Theory’. Generally, it’s like a recipe, but spoons are symbolizing energy. Do you have enough spoons for the activity you’re thinking of doing? Chronic illness minimizes the amount of spoons you can have on a day, though some days you will have more spoons than normal, or less. It’s all about balancing your use of them. Always…

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Needs will Always Change Within Your Recovery

Needs will Always Change Within Your Recovery

Recovery is a process. We all know this. Often times it takes a lifetime. Or two. But, until recently, I’ve always seen it to be a purely straight forward trajectory. Of course, there will be setbacks and the line is not straight by any means, but I thought it was like filling a jar. You just keep working, keep adding to the jar. But it’s not. Instead, it’s like balancing a ball on a see saw. Depression sits on one…

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My Memory Isn’t What it Used to Be

My Memory Isn’t What it Used to Be

I’ve always had a bad or, at least, average memory. I think that’s one of the reasons I never do as well in academia as I should, considering my intelligence level. This is something I’ve come to terms with. GPA isn’t everything, it’s actually barely anything. But recently, I’ve found that it’s gotten even worse. I’m used to forgetting facts and precise wording. I can’t memorize a paragraph no matter the pressures and I struggle to remember the date. All…

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Relapse Ruminations and Prevention

Relapse Ruminations and Prevention

I’ve been struggling to write recently. Both due to pain and brain fog. But I want to keep going. So, let’s talk about relapses. (Relapse: to suffer deterioration after a period of improvement.) Now, I’ve relapsed before. It’s terrible. It feels like I finally accomplished something, even if I hold scars from the struggle, and then suddenly… it’s all gone. Then I’m back to tears every moment of every day. When they stop there’s still the pressure behind my eyes…

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Who Are You Recovering For?

Who Are You Recovering For?

Have you ever had someone forcing you to recover at their speed rather than your own? Do you feel that it limited your ability to properly deal with your problems? Have you ever had someone who didn’t want to deal with your pain because it hurt them? Have you ever had someone who said they couldn’t be around your disorder because it was a downer? Who are you healing for? Who are you fighting for? It’s not that person. You…

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Jumpstart

Jumpstart

I’ve had a really rough night. I’ve barely slept. I’m desperate for finals to be over. But I couldn’t find the strength to do anything for the first couple hours after waking. No motivation. No nothing. But someone mentioned last night, that they were upset and they wanted to read my blog because of it. So after a couple hours of nothing, I pulled out my chromebook. And I wrote. And it hurt and my wrists are tired and my eyes…

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I Had no Idea my Sickness Would Give me Such Great Timing…

I Had no Idea my Sickness Would Give me Such Great Timing…

I had a presentation a couple of days ago. It was very simple, just a few slides on genetic draft or genetic hitchhiking, and the results of organelle mediated selective sweeps within a cell’s nuclear genome. That may sound scary, but really? It’s nothing. Everyone who is in a life science major will understand that sentence (or they should). But I felt good about it. I’d even added some comedic flair into it by making it all feel like a…

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