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Hello All, Welcome to the Clinically Okay Blog. This is where I (Alix) write in depth posts about what I’m struggling with and how I deal with it. It’s about my life, but it’s for all of us. So we can come together and share advice and coping mechanisms. It’s a place to delve into the pain and battles that we deal with on an every day basis, but also a place to stay positive. To find the positives of every situation and to try to find a silver lining in each day. So please, enjoy!

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Needs will Always Change Within Your Recovery

Needs will Always Change Within Your Recovery

Recovery is a process. We all know this. Often times it takes a lifetime. Or two. But, until recently, I’ve always seen it to be a purely straight forward trajectory. Of course, there will be setbacks and the line is not straight by any means, but I thought it was like filling a jar. You just keep working, keep adding to the jar. But it’s not. Instead, it’s like balancing a ball on a see saw. Depression sits on one…

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My Memory Isn’t What it Used to Be

My Memory Isn’t What it Used to Be

I’ve always had a bad or, at least, average memory. I think that’s one of the reasons I never do as well in academia as I should, considering my intelligence level. This is something I’ve come to terms with. GPA isn’t everything, it’s actually barely anything. But recently, I’ve found that it’s gotten even worse. I’m used to forgetting facts and precise wording. I can’t memorize a paragraph no matter the pressures and I struggle to remember the date. All…

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Christmas Pain, Revelations and the Devotion of Family

Christmas Pain, Revelations and the Devotion of Family

I had a terrifying experience on Christmas Eve. My family, as always, had met up at my grandparents’ house for present opening. I had had a full day and I was quickly approaching a crash. But my family was great and insisted I sit and rest and eat and enjoy the evening. So I did! But a couple hours into the festivities I felt a stab in my side, reaching fully into my lungs and stopping my breath. I’ve had…

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I Had no Idea my Sickness Would Give me Such Great Timing…

I Had no Idea my Sickness Would Give me Such Great Timing…

I had a presentation a couple of days ago. It was very simple, just a few slides on genetic draft or genetic hitchhiking, and the results of organelle mediated selective sweeps within a cell’s nuclear genome. That may sound scary, but really? It’s nothing. Everyone who is in a life science major will understand that sentence (or they should). But I felt good about it. I’d even added some comedic flair into it by making it all feel like a…

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I Do it Because I Have to

I Do it Because I Have to

I’ve barely done anything today. Just a lot of sleeping and staring at walls. Aimlessly browsing pinterest and trying to work up the energy and strength to take a shower. It’s a day where both my depressive symptoms are amped up, and my lungs won’t let me stop coughing resulting in a spiking headache, and I can barely stand up to make it out of my bedroom without getting a head rush and fainting. So yeah…it sucks, and it’s really…

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Stop Apologizing: My Journey to Self-Validation

Stop Apologizing: My Journey to Self-Validation

I’ve found that, throughout my short life, I often get sucked into relationships where I’m made to feel inadequate or naive. I’ve been trained to apologize for everything and to assume my opinions are foolish. Then college happened and everything got so much worse. I’m a survivor of an abusive relationship. And as a survivor I can say that trying to come back from that forced submissiveness and the paranoia of doing or saying something wrong…seems impossible. Mainly, because I…

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The Strength of Your Fight Does not Depend on Your Solitude

The Strength of Your Fight Does not Depend on Your Solitude

Late this last summer and early this semester I was being switched between antidepressants and other medications and I had to deal with a lot of nasty side effects. Those side effects forced me to miss a lot of class and I could barely eat anything for a solid couple of months. This resulted in me losing almost 20 pounds (that I didn’t have to lose) and ended with seizure like fainting episodes, concussion close calls, and incredible muscle weakness….

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